I'm 42 years old, and recently, I've found myself deeply infatuated with someone much younger than me. This isn't just a casual crush—whenever I see him, my emotions skyrocket, and there's just one problem: he's only 19 years old.
As I navigate through this unexpected and overwhelming feeling, I'm at a loss for what to do. I can't get him out of my mind, and it's affecting me in ways I never anticipated. Even though men my age show me attention, and my appearance is rather average, I can't seem to figure out why I'm drawn to him. Day and night, thoughts of him fill my head, and I often imagine various scenarios where we're together. But the more I indulge in these thoughts, the worse it gets.
At my age, I know time is slipping away, and no one has ignited this kind of spark in me for quite a while. Perhaps I'm idealizing him; after all, he is quite a bit younger. Who knows what's going on in my head?
You might say, "What's the harm in fantasizing?" But the real problem is that these fantasies have started to affect my reality. Other men no longer interest me, and the attention I get from them doesn’t stir up any emotions. I feel disconnected from everyone else. What should I do?
