I have been dating my boyfriend for five years now. Everything was great, he delighted me with various gifts, attention and love, and I kept up, giving everything I could give of myself: care, attention, his time, gifts, etc.
A month and a half ago I noticed some strange behaviour. We were sitting in a guest house and he was sitting engrossed in his phone. I sat down, wanted to watch. Immediately he put the phone away and said "secret" with a satisfied face. I felt panic and anxiety in my gut at that moment.
I thought about it for a long time and got into my phone that same evening. I saw the watsap calls with a girl from his work. She was listed as a lover. No correspondence, probably deleted it.
Then a few days later, I found screenshots in the gallery of correspondence with her. He was crying, asking me to stay, that he would fix it.
It's been a month and a half, I keep thinking about it and can't forgive. Also saw messages on his mail from ss Badoo that are over a year old.
It's very hard to live with this, I can't forgive even though I love him. I don't know what to do.
He wants to marry me and says we can work it out. Please tell me what to do in this situation.