Ten years of marriage. I did not get married because of great feelings. I married a well-to-do man, who cared for me, treated me well, called me to marry him.
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Two children. We live well. I work at a job I like, I take care of the children and the house. I take care of myself. I look good. I always try to have a good relationship with my husband, romance and passion.
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Only he was always cheating on me.
I think he has a mistress, a 23-year-old trainee from work. And it's been six months now.
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Little things come up. He gives her a ride. He's talking to her. He's giving her a phone call. And when a friend told me that she saw her husband with a young girl in a restaurant. She was just as she described her. Often comes back after midnight. On weekends she leaves. And in the car she found a used concatenative.
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I've already forgiven him for cheating twice. I don't know what to do now.
The kids are 4 and 6. We live in his apartment. On his full support. The kids get everything - a good life, attention, care. I get everything except being the woman I love.
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I knew that all men cheat. And now it's completely disgusting and bad. I don't want to sleep in the same bed with him. Mentally crushed. I used to be able to forgive everything.
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I don't even know what to do. I have a good family. There is money. But the cheating depresses me every day.
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Divorce and ruin a good, caring, happy family that has everything? Or do I have to fight myself and accept everything? At least until the kids are 18? And then get a divorce.
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I know it's not for love, but I didn't think it would be so hard mentally. I'm 35. I feel completely old, unwanted, uninterested, unwanted, unsexy.
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I take care of myself. I do it well! With my husband, I've always been the first one to put up with, to make a move, to woo, to take care of. I brought variety. So that everything was good. At home and in the sx. And to create comfort and warmth.
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I did what I had to do for my family. And I did it well. I can't do this anymore. What should I do?