Hi all, I want to share a problem I've been living with for 3 years. Three years ago I broke up with my ex-boyfriend whom I loved very much. We broke up on his initiative and I suffered for him for a very long time. But that's not the point now.
The thing is that I was stupid and young girl (17 years old) and according to his endless requests I used to send him int*maty pictures although I didn't want to do it for a long time, but I loved him and thought that we will ever get married and that he will be the only one I love.
I'm afraid that my pictures have been seen by his friends, which is highly likely. And I'm worried about my reputation. I'm terribly stressed, sometimes burning in my chest for fear that someone will send me my pictures and start blackmailing me.
I was very stupid and now realizing that I can't change the past, I really blame myself.
Plus I have very strict parents and strict rules in my family.
I am Kazakh and my whole family is very religious and it is very difficult for me to live with this. I cannot forgive myself for my stupidity and naivety. I started taking tranquillizers to calm my nervous system.
I'm afraid I won't be able to build a new relationship. In three years I never met anyone, because I was waiting for my ex... I fell in love a lot and now I realize it was stupid.
My ex told his friends after we broke up about our intimate relationship and I kind of managed to deny everything, but pics ..... what should I do? How do I move on with my life?
